I don’t blog very much anymore. It makes me sad, but I just can’t seem to find the time. But this morning I have a lot to say.
I was going to put the following post on Facebook this morning:
“I’m drowning over here. The shopping, the decorating, the baking, the parties… it’s all too much. And these kids…they keep insisting on being fed…night after night after night. I can’t do it anymore!”
But then I realized…I couldn’t leave it like that. That’s not who I am. That’s not who I want to be.
So, I write this blog post, not because you have time to read it. You probably don’t have any more time than I do. But I write it for me.
I write it quiet my thoughts. To remind myself that it doesn’t matter that my living room looks like a bomb went off in there. It doesn’t matter that my kitchen counter is piled high with all the stuff that used to be under the sink because my disposal is broken and leaking. It doesn’t matter that my tree is not up and decorated and that my cards aren’t addressed. It doesn’t matter that I’m not finished shopping or that I haven’t started wrapping. It doesn’t matter if I don’t reclaim my title for most festive cookie at the cookie swap later this week. (Which might be hard to do if I have to resort to slice and bake cookies… Don’t think it hasn’t crossed my mind.)
It doesn’t even matter whether I am creating perfect Christmas memories for my children.
Because none of that is what Christmas is about. So, I write this not only to quiet my thoughts, but also to focus my heart. What matters this Christmas season is that Jesus was born to live among men and fulfill prophesy. He became flesh and dwelt among us so he could bring us Good News. He came to save us from ourselves.
This is what we celebrate. If I forget that and get focused on trying to make perfect memories for my kids or have the prettiest outdoor lights in the neighborhood or make the most festive cookie, I could get lost in it. (And, I’m afraid for the last several days, I have been lost in it.)
So, I’m making a conscious effort – beginning with writing this blog post – to regroup, relax, and refocus. Will you?